Trembling and quivering

~M has read my last post and is asking do I want permission?

Yes, yes , yes. But there is something of the masochist in me as I posted the next page I had written while waiting in desperation for her answer.
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Will she get bored and log off or will she read my plea and …….

Waiting for answer is exquisite torture….

I am going to admit it to myself – finally…

I’m desperate to be controlled, to be told what to do – to myself, with others – that’s as far as I dare go at the moment - to admit any more and there’s lots more would be far too dangerous.

I felt I had to admit that, in case ~M was waiting for me to confess further – as a means of strengthening the control she has over me. I don’t want to risk doing the wrong thing. I can’t take much more arousal and I want her to……

Another revelation…..

Make me do something….. what?

Another thought….
Am I being too frank – have I put her off me… is this too disgusting for her?


I have read all her posts – it has made me feel better…..maybe it will be OK as she has written explicitly about controlling, about women – but will she…..

Maybe if I told her about the stories that had the most impact on me.

Another terrifying thought…

Can people read my blog and me not know? What if ~M is doing that and deliberately making me wait …….

Please……..


Another milestone – and I’m trembling like a leaf in one of those breezes that just caresses your skin and also quivering like a frightened rabbit transfixed by the stare of a predator….

~M has just answered my last post

So I’m trembling with excitement about what will the control lead to – images swirling and chasing each other through my mind – delicious, wet, fingers and tongues.

I’m also quivering with fear in case that is the last contact.

The trembling is now associated with anxiety – what will I have to do?